If you feel anything like me then you feel like you just got off a roller coaster. 2019 was one intense year start to finish for many. It was a year full of unexpected changes, closures, detours, life shifts, loss, and death in many forms. Yet it was filled with many good surprises and breakthroughs. 2019 wiped me off my feet numerous times with the punch it packed. Many of my friends, family members, and clients had the same events unfolding in their lives throughout 2019 as well. 2019 seemed to be closing out the things we were holding on to that were no longer serving us. It was a turning point in many of our lives, even if we didn’t want to go in a different direction. It was having to let go of things we didn’t want to release.
Even being psychic many things were removed from my life that I didn’t see coming. In the moment it felt like a year of loss with friendships ending unexpectedly, betrayals being revealed, projects falling through, stifled creativity, heightened emotion, lack of motivation, confusion, distractions, events not happening the way they were envisioned, harsh setbacks, and feeling completely lost. Many moments in 2019 brought me to a place of reevaluation of myself, my decisions, the energy I carry, who I am, and those I allow around me. I felt vulnerable and that everything was out of focus. I had to keep brushing myself off and standing up again with each wave 2019 crashed on me. I had moments of self doubt, pity, high stress and loads of frustration. There was no hiding in 2019 it was revealing endless truths. Anyone wearing a mask was quickly revealed and true colors were shown. Many chose to outgrow old habits, patterns, and comfort zones made huge strides in their journeys. Sadly some didn’t face their truths and went into repeating old patterns, habits, or staying in their comfort zone. Therefore having to learn those lessons in an even more intense way until changes are made. We all had to look deep within ourselves facing some harsh truths and realizations.
Thankfully I have a strong team on the other side to help guide, support, and motivate me. As well as a strong circle that surrounds me. Through this year I was able to see the authentic ones in my life that are there for the right reasons. The ones that give me energetically what I give them. The ones that help me stay grounded and assist my growth as a person. I in turn learned how to be a better friend to others. I had many lend a hand in those weak moments and redirect me to look beyond the painful situations and see the value of the lessons being taught. Now being on the back end, I can see things from a completely different perspective and a higher view. I see the lessons learned, the self growth made, the mountains I overcame, the endurance I have, the inner strength within, and how far I’ve come in one year. It’s caused me to expand in ways without realizing it until after the fact. I fixed areas that needed work and put myself out there even more allowing myself to be my authentic self. I took the time to reflect, face any insecurities, fears, unexpected situations and handle them correctly, and to have faith in the unknown. Most importantly it forced me to not hide or stay in my comfort zone and love myself entirely. To spend time doing better self care and not giving too much away.
For those to had a rough year of lessons congratulate yourself for making it through. Love yourself for the lessons you learned and spend time doing self care. You are leveling up for 2020 to be the new and improved you. Having swallowed the lessons let’s look forward to 2020 with a new level of openness for the unknown. Bring it on 2020!